Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Letter to my younger self

You may encounter many defeats but you must not be defeated. Please remember that your difficulties do not define you. They simply strengthen your ability to overcome. - Maya Angelou.

For what it's worth, it's never too late to be who ever you want to be.
I hope you live a life you are proud of.
And if you find that you are not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.

Monday, January 23, 2012

The Guest House

This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they are a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice.
meet them at the door laughing and invite them in.
Be grateful for whatever comes.
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.

A quiet CNY this time leaves much space for introspection.

I should do this more often. Do nothing.

In fact my next New Year, I aim to celebrate it in another country altogether. Try something different. Do something new. No more trying to please or be extravagantly good to people, hoping somehow to be validated, like the child I once was.

Sometimes people closest to you are indeed the ones who hurt you the most. So you have to learn to let go and put yourself first. You are your own validation. You didnt ask to be born. You didnt ask to be born into a certain set of circumstances or people. Lose the baggage. You will struggle. You will cry. You will get mad.

Know this: You are alive with all the possibilities ahead. You can re-write your story. Be grateful for all things, great and small. Don't let other people's negativity bring you down. You've gotten this far and done this much. Be kind to yourself, first and foremost. Cry and get mad for a while. Then think of all the good things. There there always, somewhere. There's always something to smile about.

Smile. And then let go. And move on.

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Cabbage anyone?

So among the projects of the year is something everyone has had on their to-do lists at one time or the other.

Losing weight.

Yes, no originality there, but this year I've been slightly encouraged at the 2kg loss I'd already managed to achieve in about a month a half. So am going to keep going till I lose another 3 at least. Then I'll be back to my weight of five years ago.

The goal, I keep telling myself, is not the weight loss per se. But to get fit, toned, look good in pics and fit better in clothes. So far it's been good. I dont have a fancy regime. I just make sure I jog at least four times a week followed by toning/resistance/stretching exercises. All in about one hour in the evenings at the local park.

I've also been cooking a lot at home and barely eating out in the past two months. It isnt just economical but really quite healthy, I'd like to think. Ever since I saw the aunty at the SS2 corner chap-fan shop shovelling a plateful of shiny MSG into the soup, eating out has been a bit of a queasy experience for me. As a result, trips to hawker stalls have become much rarer now. The only places that would have healthier food like salads, sandwiches and such, are invariably pricier so since am skimping on spending at the moment, all have been ruled out.

And so comes in the humble cabbage. Most who are well-acquainted with the world of losing weight (or trying to) would probably have come across the cabbage soup diet. Apparently one can lose up to 10 lbs in a week on the diet. So when I googled it up, this came up:

Three hours to boil a soup? I don't think so. The rest of the seven-day mealplan looked pretty militant but what would you expect if you wanted to lose up to 3 kgs in just one week. I do want to lose weight but then I love my food too. So all in moderation. I get really light-headed if I don't munch enough and having low blood pressure probably makes that worse. Having said that, since cabbage is probably the most inexpensive vegetable out there and stays fresh the longest, it has been my best vege friend (haha) during my current austerity drive. I've been chucking it in soup, accompanying other vege like carrots or cauliflower, or whatever's in the fridge.

And when I looked it up online, it certainly helped to find that good 'ol cabbage has so many benefits, it's almost like a miracle vege. What it has/does, in a nutshell:

  • Contains pretty much all the main vitamins: A, C, E, B. With a big dollop of vitamin C apparently
  • Packs plenty of fibre, making it perfect to get rid of constipation and has detoxifying properties
  • Contains folate, potassium and calcium
  • Has proven anti-cancer, anti-inflammatory and anti-oxidant properties
The list goes on a bit, but the above basically covers most of it. So, while being economical, you can still try to eat healthy really. And contrary to popular belief, rice can still be your good friend when you're dieting, since it provides healthy carbs that your body needs anyway. Just have it in moderation and there's just no escaping exercise.

Just do it.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

New year new beginnings?

"When your friends begin to flatter you on how young you look, it’s a sure sign you’re getting old.” - Mark Twain


I am indeed. A new year, and another stab at new beginnings. One of which is this blogging "project" of mine. I suppose it's high time I'd really try to blog. This would be the first attempt for 2012. It's also high time I'd try to figure out using Blogger, being not the most net-savvy person I know.

After numerous false starts and P1 wifi going offline on me, I'd decided to eff it and just use a template and start a sentence. Any sentence. So here it is, for now.

Another yawning day has ended and a mild sense of panic that I've wasted the day has now officially descended upon me.